The Luck of the Draw
January 23rd, 2000Are you feeling lucky?
I can't shake it, but I've been feeling lucky lately. Maybe a little too lucky. And that's a bad thing, because there's also this feeling that my luck will run out soon.
With a vengeance. Not a soft, wimpy puff of air. A loud, jarring, and possibly very painful crash.
I almost killed myself while sky diving once. And I've had lots of near-misses while driving. But I was able to walk away from all of those incidents. Lucky me.
Oh, but wait. I lost my luggage this weekend. In it were my lucky boxers, my lucky shirt, and even my lucky bunny slippers. Well, that's not entirely true. I don't really have a lucky shirt and only one pair of bunny slippers, so they can hardly be called my "lucky bunny slippers." But still.
When I lost my luggage, I figured my luck had finally run out. It actually relived me. There was no loud and painful crash. Just a puff of lost belongings.
Then someone found my luggage and returned it to me. Damn.
Sometimes I wonder about guardian angels. Do they exist? Or are they just rationalizations of past occurrences? I don't know; I wonder.
For instance, how in the world did I survive that sky diving accident if there wasn't a guardian angel watching over me? And how about all those near-misses while driving? And what does "near-miss" really mean? Isn't a near-miss a hit?
Or maybe it's all a set of coincidences. Maybe these things just happened by random chance. Who is to say there even is such a thing as luck?
And if I don't believe in it, why do I have a pair of lucky bunny slippers?
In the same way that people are agnostic just in case God exists, maybe this is my way of believing in luckājust in case it exists. Better safe than sorry, eh?
That's probably a lame reason, but it's the best I can come up with right now. Until my luck runs out and a near-miss turns into a near-hit (is that even a term? does that even make sense?), I'll keep on wearing my lucky bunny slippers.
Because, well, I really want to postpone that loud, jarring, and possibly very painful crash as long as possible.
Are you feeling lucky?